My Randomness

 I don't know where to start. I wonder about the line between wanting to word vomit my intrusive thoughts, to try and purge the litany of self loathing and seeming to whine about self serving bullshit when there are people with problems that aren't self inflicted. Am I a victim? Or is that self agrandizing ?    I hate myself. I think I'm lazy, and selfish and entitled and spoiled. I have massive imposter syndrome, like my friends think I'm a good person, but I'm scared my extended family think I suck and I guess I'm scared they could be right. to be continued