When last we spoke..

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I believe I was deeply in the throes of a mad new crush. No worries gentle reader, I still am. lol. Maybe more than a crush, who knows. Special fuck you very much goes out to my bf and mom for the new moniker b.o.w and b.o.m, meaning boyfriend of the week and boyfriend of the month respectively. I'll grant that they have a valid point in that I can sometimes shift my affections suddenly, but I am not that bad!! T was like months, Mark was a friend for ages, before I realized he had the potential to be more, and now we come to my new object of affection. Tempted to use his real name, because a. I don't think he'd mind, and b. I don't think he'll read this. but to be safe let's call him Maurice. Maurice and I are still talking all day, everyday, via text. I went through 3000 text's as a mater of fact before I went ahead and added unlimited texts to my phone. We've discussed everything from foods, parenting, tv shows, music, suicide, criminal records (we both have one) to socioeconomics and everything in between.
When I hear the chime that means I have a text message, and I see his name I start to smile. I feel silly, happy, like a teenager. I also feel insecure, and nervous, but that"s just me being me. He seems amazing, and maybe that's just the newness but I really can't wait to find out!! I could write paragraphs more but I just noticed the time, and I have to go for now, so let me just close by saying that I am really hopeful today. I like him, he seems to like me. It's funny sometimes the unexpected paths life leads you down. Personally, I kinda wanna slay the dragon!

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